Saturday, January 24, 2009

Filling Up Time

I'm a little upset with myself. This past week I didn't work out at all, and I've been giving into bad food cravings. At the same time, I think I needed the brake. Even though I wasn't working out, I was doing things for me. Every day in my email, I get fung shui tips and I save them, because I know that someday some of those tips will come in handy. One of the tips I got one time sounds a little crazy and maybe a little unrealistic, but it said, "if you're trying to change your outlook on life, try washing your windows."
People hear that and laugh, and I admit, it does sound a little crazy, but I tried it anyways. Honestly, I felt a little better about the way I percieved things. Another tip I got one time was, "If you're looking to increase your love life, move your bed away from the wall with enough space to walk." I'm not looking for serious relationships right now, but I am looking to spice things up. I am looking to improve my social life with the boys, and funny thing is, things have improved.

I had a friend on myspace for sometime, but we really never talked. One night I was online and he was online, and we started talking. We made plans to hang out and we ended up going to Grand Torino (I like to remember little details.. it makes life more interesting that way). We had such a good time that we planned on hanging out again the next weekend. This time, we went out to eat and then a movie. He payed for dinner, I payed for the movie (Texas Roadhouse and my Bloody Valentine... I've never seen a 3D movie, and I live in Utah, it's not like there's much to choose from in the restaraunt business).
Anyways, when things go really good, there's usually strings attatched... strings like the fact that he would be leaving for Iraq soon. I really liked hanging out with him and he was deffinately not a boring person, but I didn't want to do anything to lead him on in any way. It wouldn't be fair to either of us, he would be gone for 6 months, and what if someone met someone.. you know? So I turned into a nice little Utah girl and wouldn't let him kiss me (Utah will be the death of me... my exciting social life anyways lol).
The following Monday was his last night in town, so we hung out all day. We went to Ifly (a flight stimulater where you get to fly.. sorta..., then we got ice cream, then we went to the mall, and then we went to go see Deffience in theatres. It was a good day, I had a lot of fun, and would be sad to see him go... but such is life so I moved on.

Last night, my neighbor, Jamie (the girl lol), called me and asked me what I was up to and if I wanted to hang out with a couple of guys. I told her I didn't have anything planned and that they better be hot guys or I'm going home. She assured me that they were hot. I got ready and went over next door. The guys weren't hot, but they were attractive, so I stayed. There was something very familiar about these guys, but I couldn't figure it out. We went and played laser tag and then we went over to one of the guy's house to play video games and watch a movie.
I finally figured it out. I had met these boys before. My sister and I were at a college halloween dance, and they actually came up to us. When I told them how I knew them, it finally clicked with them (apparently I had looked familiar and they couldn't figure out why).
So, that night wasn't too eventful, but now I have another guy to hang out with for the time being, and if nothing happens... well, I'm sure by then, I'll have met someone new.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Believing In Yourself

This is just a short post. Everyday, I'm on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I usually run 22 minutes and then I walk the rest of the time. Today, I had an extra burst of energy and ran for 30 minutes straight at the speed of 6mph without stopping or slowing down once.
I was really excited for this accomplishment because it's not easy. My new found indurance is amazing to me, and I plan to do it every day for the rest of this week, and then next week, I'm going to increase my speed to 6.5mph and see how long I can run.
I believed in myself, and now I am getting my body into great shape and building my indurance and stamina.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Taking My Life Back

For the past few months there have seemed to be things that were overwhelming. I had bills to pay, jobs to find, school to finish, the list could go on and on. Anyways, yesterday came to a breaking point. I have a New Year's resolution to get out of debt by 2010, and sitting around on my butt is not going to get this accomplished.
Yesterday, one of the jobs that I had applied for ran a credit check and came across some old debts that need to be settled. They told me that if I would like to work for them I need to set up some kind of a payment plan and have the first payment made by Monday (today is Friday just so you know).
I was worried, because for three months I wasn't working and I had bills that I had to catch up from then and other things that I had to take care of, and I really wasn't sure that I would be able to do it.
Then, I took a minute to just sit down and think about my options. My parents are very supportive about this job I applied for and are very excited for me to start working. This job is going to mean a lot of opportunity for me. I will finally be able to move out on my own and start doing things for myself. I decided to sit down and make a budget up that detailed all of the bills they have helped me with and how these present debts would factor in.
I have it shown about how much total it will be and I also have an idea that my paychecks can be deposited into my account and my parents can use it to take care of my bills.
I haven't exactly discussed this with them, but I'm pretty sure once I lay everything out for them, and they see how it will be put into effect, I think that they might actually be willing to help out.
Also, my positive thinking podcasts have really been helping me. Before, if I would have recieved this news, I would have broken down and probably given up, causing myself to go into deep depression. But now, I try and look at all positive aspects. I try and look at all of my options and see what I can fit into my life and make work for me. I'm sure my parents will be a little upset that I let things accumulate to what they are now, but they will always love and support me, and I know that they will allow me to work something out with them. I just have to be positive about this whole experience and know that it has taught me a lot.
Until I talk to my parents, I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Getting Rid of Negative Energy

One of my New Year's resolutions was to be more positive, and so far I've been doing pretty good. There's a meditation that I do everyday (also another one of my resolutions) about positive thinking... it motivates me to have a new way of thinking and look at all things in a positive way.
The other day I was talking to a friend... well I guess you could call him more of an acquaintance, and he was telling me how I need to start thinking about marriage, that I needed to start looking for guys that were into serious relationships instead of guys that were just looking for a "good time."
I explained to him that I'm only 22 and I still have a lot that I want to accomplish and do on my own... that I'm not ready to even think about getting married. The thing is, I live in Utah, and if you're not married with a family by the time you're my age, there is something wrong with you. I don't think there's anything wrong with me, I just need some me time, when I'm ready to settle down I'll start thinking about it and looking for the type of guy that would be good for me to settle down with.
Well, my "acquaintance" wouldn't really listen. He asked me what was so important that I couldn't accomplish without someone else. Not only that, he started telling me things that were wrong with me and telling me that all of these things are why guys around here haven't been interested in me. He told me that because I was into fashion that I wasn't going to find a decent guy.

This really upset me, just because I'm into fashion doesn't mean that's all I know and that I can't find a decent guy. I have a lot of interests other than fashion. I'll go on the occasional hike, I'm into working out, so I know a lot about health stuff and gym stuff. I'm adventurous and am willing to try most things. I listen when guys talk to me and I listen to them tell me about their hobbies and interests and try to learn more. So this guy had no right telling me that I wasn't going to be good enough for a good guy... just because he's not into fashion.
As I was talking to him last night, I realised that this guy was not a good person for me to talk to. I'm sure he had good intentions and wasn't meaning to be so harsh, but I need to figure out my life on my own, I don't need someone else around to pick it apart and make me feel bad about myself.
When I hung up, I decided that I'm not going to talk to this person anymore, I don't need someone messing up my positive energy. I also went through my phone and deleted anybody else that I thought made me feel that way. This year is a new start for me and I want to attempt to keep all if not most of my New Year's resolutions, and the positive thinking one is really important to me.

On a brighter note, I've been doing really good with working out everyday and getting back into shape. I've been keeping a food journal so I can keep track of what I'm doing right and what I might want to work on. Every month, I meet with some friends that are doing the same thing as far as working out and getting in shape, and I share my strategies with them and take from them what I can get to better myself. I have a feeling that even though my New Year's didn't play out how I was hoping that this is going to be a very good year for me because I'm going to make it that way.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

The Beginning of a New Year

One of my New Year's resolutions was to learn a new word everyday. Today's word is "quotidian" which basically means routine, and in order to learn my new word, I'm going to use it in a sentence.
I have a new exercise quotidian that consists of running 30 minutes everyday and doing pushups and sit-ups every other day.
So far my new year has been good. I woke up this morning and had a healthy breakfast which I recorded in my food journal. Then, I meditated for 25 minutes on positive thinking (it's really helpful), then I had a cup of green tea (it was delicious). Also, I'm keeping up with my resolutions and working on writing more blogs, some will be boring, but I'm sure that some will be interesting... seems to happen every now and then.
I'm about to go start my quotidian, beginning with exercise, then I'm going to do some cleaning around the house, so I can keep up with my resolution to keep my house and my room clean.
If anything exciting happens today, I'll let you know (but don't hold your breath).